Who am I and What's My Story?
It's challenging writing about myself when I'm on a journey to figure out who I really am.
It's difficult telling my story when my story is still unfolding.
We're also taught that it's not nice to talk about ourselves and that perhaps it's not safe to call attention to ourselves as women.
And we're shown through social media that we're supposed to pretend like everything is perfect.
But here's a tiny imperfect bit of what I know so far.
In kindergarten, back in NJ, my teacher told me to "fight my own battles" when a boy in my class was constantly bruising my shins with his soccer-style kicks. So, at the crazy young age of 5, I got the message, loud and clear, from a trusted authority figure that it was up to me to take care of and protect myself. Maybe that lead to my independent spirit and entrepreneurialism, but maybe it also led to my need to control and not really feel comfortable sharing my fears and deepest feelings with others. As I look back on my life now, I see countless times where I did what I thought I should do, instead of giving myself the time and space to connect to what was really true to me and my heart's desires.
We've all done it. Many of us still do.
It's a hard habit to break, especially when society seems to constantly reinforce that behavior. We're not taught the tools to step proudly into our uniqueness or how to keep our hearts open while we navigate this beautiful yet heart-breaking journey called life. We're not taught that that should be a main priority. As it turns out, those qualities are completely necessary for true health, happiness and heart-felt connection, which is what we all deeply crave.
Who would you be if you felt safe enough, confident enough and loved enough to show up fully as yourself?
What would your life and your relationships be like?
What would our world be like?
I'm on a mission to help all of us find out.
That's all I know.
Let this perfectly imperfect journey continue :)
Story by Kristen Joy